Fuck this!

I wish I could have seen
how blind I was to think
you would come to your senses
I am young and na? ve,
so easy to deceive
I realised my mistakes far to late
And you clearly didn't even see...

He cut you loose
yet you still waited on his every word
You had no clue what to do
You fawned like a little girl
Yet in those moments of sanity
You frowned more than you laughed...

You still care for Him though
And ran back to be a part of his little show
Like a perfectly pathetic shadow

I tried to warn you
Even offered you a raft
But you burnt that bridge

Fuck it
I'm actually not surprised
it came to this
again.
You complained you couldn't find the source of the pain.
That's funny.
Look what you gained now...

I was right
and yet at the same time
I was wrong
I lit the path for you
but you just slammed the door
In my face
Refusing to embrace the
logical Escape
Choosing rather to fumbling
in the dark
Choosing to burn the ship
Loosing the sunset

Do you even remember what you stood by before?

You feared the unknown
craved the old
you weren't bold
you took his lies
as if they were gold.

Such an ignorant fool
But you seem to be overjoyed
With this painful routine
Of playing the jester
To his whims

My Love for you is
Lost
accompanied by
Jealousy
Replaced only by
Pity...

Upon a sea of darker thought
A path half explored
I sought clarity
Sailing toward the edge
Looking out beyond
the simple limits of the ledge
At the cusp of sanity
Fickle notions
At the void of insanity
Contemplating the fall
Could I make my escape
Just forget it all
Reshape my lost mentality
Long neglected emotions
A logical fatality of thought
A Self elected amnesia
Wars never fought
No need for an anaesthesia
Clever self loathing
Getting lost within walls of many thoughts perceived
Blessed to remain
Forever alone
in a mind
I call my own